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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 132 min read
I hope your girlfriend reads this
On his birthday, after he is in bed, I lift a glass to you and I toast that you don’t show up this year to break his joy or that if you...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 131 min read
Late breaking news
It is all small, the fraction of sunlight on the living room floor where the dog is sleeping the slamming door, my teenage son bursting...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 9, 20222 min read
I wasn't counting
I wasn’t counting. I was feeding you on the sofa in the dark, I was rereading the directions on a box of fish sticks. I was down the hall...
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Nicole Jankowski
Mar 28, 20221 min read
my neighbor's trees
Heavy over the fence, I felt them first the cloying white flowers of three furious beauties-- heady and seductive, otherwise complicating...
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Nicole Jankowski
Sep 13, 20211 min read
Dead & Co & me, etc
It was time to hurry up to finish and begin except she was done for, done and I never even started. Needs & needs & needs milky breast,...
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Nicole Jankowski
Aug 2, 20211 min read
a hot wind wanting
Change comes in July a hot wind wanting routed by devout purpose carrying on savagely until in the night your heart goes roaming do not...
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Nicole Jankowski
May 7, 20211 min read
Married again
the morning after Independence Day. white dress and sunburn, I am uncareful contradiction the opposite of sovereign still lit from last...
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Nicole Jankowski
Mar 26, 20211 min read
Wait
longer, sit at the table let them tell you to leave.
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Nicole Jankowski
Feb 27, 20211 min read
Get Married, they said
we lean into Sunday, like parents do-- he wakes before me talks to us both low and quiet, a first, false glow to blanket the day until I...
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Nicole Jankowski
Feb 24, 20211 min read
your mom goes to college
no one asks but I am in the yard studying molecules, squinting where the afternoon laps at the shore of dinnertime the winter sun...
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Nicole Jankowski
Feb 4, 20211 min read
In Texas
February smells like Michigan summer, I keep the windows in the bedroom cracked. The furnace clicks on at 5 am when two birds call and...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20193 min read
The Grief and the Kindness
My dad died 10 days ago, suddenly, with no warning. The entire first week after, it felt like I was floating alone in a cold, green...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20194 min read
I don't wear pants, which is probably why I'm happier than you
When my husband comes home from work and finds me with my naked rear end hanging out from my closet, I'm sure he thinks it's an...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20195 min read
We are all of us travelers, here
On traveling to Denver
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20192 min read
Gone to wherever she goes
She’s darker than you’d like her to be. Her mind is always shifting, darting into corners and drifting down rabbit holes. You have...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20193 min read
Starting over, where the story begins
on starting over again
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20192 min read
The Afterlife
After your tv disappears and the dusty space lectures you, you read an article called “How to be alone” and think I cannot do that, I...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20193 min read
On Turning 40, and never growing up
Just after midnight, while I was sleeping, the entire world conspired silently in my favor—-to bring to close the last difficult year of...
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Nicole Jankowski
Nov 12, 20195 min read
There is so much you do not know about Autism
There are the marshmallows on the floor. Empty packages of Ramen noodles. Chapsticks, sucked out through the top of the tube...
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